The past few months Psalm 23 became a reality in my life.
Psalm 23:4 “Yes, though I walk through the (deep, sunless) valley of the shadow of death, I will fear or dread no evil, for You are with me; Your rod (to protect) and Your staff (to guide), they comfort me”.
My valley of the shadow of death started on 6 December 2017. I was admitted to hospital for a hysterectomy. Usually, I am not a scared person, but before this operation, I was literally shivering with fear. The last thing that I remember is that the hospital personnel took me to the theatre. Just before they gave me the aesthetics, I said; “Lord I give my spirit over in Your hands”.
People that visited me the next day told me that I was looking good, NO make-up, jokes and everything. I even prayed for some people. (Things I can’t remember at all).
Two later after I was transferred to another hospital’s ICU, where they found out that there was something wrong with my kidneys. They were also smaller than usual and didn’t function as they should. I needed 8 pints of blood and dialyses thereafter. I also had fluid in my lungs and had to get draining pipes to get rid of it. Furthermore, I had internal bleeding and my body went into septic shock. So I went back into theatre and had to go three days with an open wound before they could close me up again. I was very ill and a lot of people thought that I was going to die. Some people tell me that I was very swollen up and my skin looked yellow, even my eyes were yellow. Other people tell me that I was just a skeleton lying there. I have no idea what I looked like at which stage and most of these events I can’t remember. What I do know is that many people visited me and prayed for me.
I also know that I was very close to death. So much so, that I could taste it. I was lying in this cold dark place, not scared at all, but very, very tired. Tired to fight to live… Everyday death teased me and I fought with all my might to live. I got so tired of my body, soul, and spirit and I could feel how the life was leaving me slowly but surely.
But God is faithful and something wonderful happened. The Holy Spirit spoke to me and said; “Is God not bigger than this?” So I spontaneously started to sing and praise God in tongues within my spirit. Immediately I shot out of my situation like a rocket. I shot out through the deep, deep waters, remembering all the air bubbles as I went up and up till I reached the top of the earth. There was life, sunlight, green grass and beautiful colourful flowers. And for the first time, I heard people praying and angels singing praises to God. Since that moment my situation started to turn around and I was improving.
If you consider everything then, I basically had 4 operations, spent 28 days in ICU and then 2 weeks in the general ward, before I went home. Since I was admitted to the hospital until I went home I lost 14kg and weighed 49kg. Recovery was a very big thing. I had to learn to eat, walk and look after myself again. A caretaker took care of me for six weeks since I wasn’t able to do anything for myself. I was so weak that I didn’t even have any energy to have a conversation. Recovery is a very slow process and not easy at all. But it is going better each day and I trust God for total healing. I thank Him every day for what He has done for me thus far.
Psalm 23:5-6 “You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil, my cup runs over. Surely or only goodness, mercy and unfailing love shall follow me all the days of my life and through the length of my days the house of the Lord (and His presence) shall be my dwelling place”.
I’m looking forward to a wonderful future…
My heart overflows with thankfulness to every single person that prayed for me. To family, friends, people from Shalom (my congregation) and everyone in the SAVF, especially to my beautiful daughter and wonderful husband, who never gave up on me. If it wasn’t for the prayers of these people, I would not have lived today. The Scriptures teaches us in James 5:16(b) “The earnest (heartfelt, continued) prayer of a righteous man makes tremendous power available (dynamic in its working).
Jesus took the keys of death and the power over life and death is in God’s hands. He has the last word and He said I may live. To God the glory forever and ever…
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